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One Year Ago Today- August 1, 2015

 

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It has been a year since the passing of my sweet Nando. Writing this is hard because I am still grieving. Percy is a gift and the sweetest boy, I love him dearly and he was just what I needed to help me deal with the pain of losing both of my sweet babies less than a year apart.  There are many happy memories and I will cherish them forever. This is my way of honoring the memory of my babies, you don’t have to comment unless you want to, not obligated. The hole in my heart has a bandaid covering it, it has not healed and never will.

He loved to sit on my lap while I worked

He loved to sit on my lap while I worked

Nando was brave, loving and the best most well behaved dog ever. a kinder or more gentle soul you would be hard pressed to find. He was a real gentleman, more than anything in the world Nando loved to eat, it made me so happy seeing him scarf down his food with such joy and gusto. Within a minute his bowl would be clean and he would sit next to Izzy, patiently waiting for her to finish so that he could lick her bowl clean as well.  Izzy was a finicky eater and often would not finish her food, Nando counted on that.

Izzy waiting for Nando to clean her bowl

Izzy waiting for Nando to clean her bowl

It was just 2 months shy of his 15th birthday when Nando passed away from a brain tumor. I have mentioned in many posts how he was diabetic and blind. He developed diabetes when he was  8 years old and lived with diabetes for almost 7 years. The last year of his life was not happy times, he started deteriorating when Izzy passed. They were best friends, I have never seen two dogs so close to each other. Her passing weighed heavily on Nando, and it seemed like he lost his will to live, the brain tumor diagnosis hit hard and he went downhill very quickly.

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Izzy was first and what they say is true, you can’t have just one pug. I felt that Izzy needed a companion and I registered with a local pug rescue group saying that I wanted a young adult pug. They told me that is a tough one and I may have to wait a year or longer. I was prepared to do just that. Only 4 days after submitting my application I got a call from them saying that they had a young black pug who was found tied to a pole in Long Island with a note tied around his neck and all his medical records. He was 10 1/2 months old. They asked me if I would like to adopt him, of course I couldn’t get the YES out quickly enough and the next day Nando arrived. I don’t think I have ever seen a pug as big as Nando, he was twice Izzy’s size, a gentle giant. Izzy immediately fell in love with him as did I.

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I try to concentrate on the happy memories but it’s hard when the last months of his life were so traumatic. I am so thankful that I was given the gift of caring for Izzy and Nando, taking care of those very special souls was so much a part of my life, when they passed away part of me died with them.

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I am so thankful to have Percy and very grateful to Emily for choosing me to care for this special  boy.  I spent so many years caring for Izzy and Nando with so many health problems, it was a lot of work, day and night. At the end of Nando’s life I was not sleeping or eating regularly and everyday I watched him deteriorate and I’m afraid I was deteriorating as well.

Rest in Peace Nando, my sweet boy. I will always love you!

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84 Comments Post a comment
  1. queensashy #

    I still remember Nando rummaging through the kitchen when I came for your potluck for the first time. What a little character he was! I will be thinking of you tomorrow.

    July 31, 2016
  2. Sandhya #

    Dear Suzanne,
    I can feel your pain but am struggling to find words to comfort you. When we lose those very near and dear to our hearts, it is so true that a part of us dies with them and that there is a hole in our hearts forever. We try to remember the good memories but are flooded with the memories of them in their last days…..it is extremely difficult. Only solace is knowing that we were blessed to have them in our lives and that they are in a better place.

    July 31, 2016
    • Thank you so much for such kind and wonderful thoughts it means so much to me 💔💕❤️

      July 31, 2016
  3. Hi MoM: Its me Nando and Izzy is here with me-we miss you and we love you FOREVER…You ARE the very best Pug Mom in the Universe. Percy is very, very fortunate to have you in his golden years. MoM we are out of pain and in doggie heaven together. We watch over you daily and only wish you good thoughts of us that is what we wish! xo Nando – xo Izzy.

    July 31, 2016
  4. Love doesn’t go away, and the love you had for Nando and Izzy will stay with you . You gave those little pugs a home and a happy life. That’s all we can do. You have taught me to love pugs. Thank you Suzanne and a big hug .

    July 31, 2016
  5. This is such a beautiful tribute, Suzanne. You are so strong to do this.
    I wish I could have done something like this. It’s been more than a year since Aspen died and the pain is just too intense. That he died at all was bad enough, but the *how* of it is unbearable.
    You are a wonderful example of strength and courage. Hugs.

    July 31, 2016
    • I know I thought of you and Aspen when I was writing this. It is the same for Me it’s the how that I will never get over. 😘😘💕💕

      July 31, 2016
  6. Sending you lots of love and hugs Suzanne!! xoxo

    July 31, 2016
  7. Suzanne, I know dog lovers never truly get over the loss of their best friend. I still miss my beautiful princess.

    July 31, 2016
    • Losing a pet is losing a family member and the pain is very real and profound. Thank you so much and I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Princess.

      July 31, 2016
  8. Such a lovely tribute to your beautiful boy xxx I’m thinking of you and sending love and hugs xx

    July 31, 2016
  9. Thinking of you and Nando. The first year is definitely difficult. My first pug Tomo must be playing with Nando at Over the Rainbow Bridge.♡ May you have many years with Percy and more memories to share of your pugs. ♡

    July 31, 2016
    • Oh I love to think that Nando and Izzy, their BFF Daisey and sweet Tomo are all together running and playing. Thank you so much.

      July 31, 2016
  10. I keep thinking the same Suzanne, they had the best pug-mamma they could ever get. They were very lucky to have you!! Sending you love and hugs on this special day.

    July 31, 2016
    • Thanks Viviana, I never think I did enough, that maybe there was something more I could have done. Thank you for the kind words.

      July 31, 2016
  11. So emotional words, dear Suzanne – I understand you so much. How right you are to explain how heavy is your sorrow.
    My white kitten passed ( from female tumor ) 4 years ago, and the vet was super, gave her some quiet years, from 9( date of the tumor ) to 14 years where she passed during the night.. I did not sleep a lot during many nights – to secure her.
    Now, miss H, lady cat, quite a different one, cheerful, sportgirl -.
    You will know lots of happy days with loving Percy – kisses for you and he. – france

    July 31, 2016
    • Oh France, je pleure pour toi. I am so sorry to hear of your little kitty’s passing. You understand the pain and also the toll it takes on the caregiver. So happy you have Miss H and that she is so healthy and happy. Kisses to you both!

      July 31, 2016
  12. Suzanne even though I only know you through this blogosphere…I want reach out give you a big hugs after ready this post. Wishing you love and peace in your heart…

    July 31, 2016
    • Thanks so much Zeba, I will take your virtual hug and thank you for that.

      July 31, 2016
  13. Devora Cohn #

    I can’t be a year! Seems like 3 months ago.

    Sent from my iPhone

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    July 31, 2016
  14. ❤️ 😌❤️

    July 31, 2016
  15. It is awful when a loving, much-loved dog leaves us.

    I have had dogs all my life, since I was seven years old, and I am sixty now. The pain is always hard to bear. I remember all of them and they were all better friends than most humans I know, although I am lucky enough to know some wonderful humans too.

    I have three dogs now. The oldest, Ronan, was almost dead when we rescued him. He was on a drip for three days and the vet didn’t think that he would survive. He has had a happy life, but I know that he is nearing his end. He is very arthritic, slow and going blind. He is, with respect to all the others, the most loving, lovable dog I have ever had. Everyone who meets him says so too. He loves everyone, human and canine, and they all love him. I know that I will be heartbroken when he eventually goes. So I totally understand you sentiments.

    Much love!

    July 31, 2016
    • Thank you Lance, it’s so true our fur friends are sometimes better than the human ones. Ronan sounds like a very special boy and it’s so wonderful that you rescued him, he was meant to be with you and that is very special. They say that rescued pets are cognizant of the fact that they owe their life to the human that rescued them, I think that it goes both ways and our pets give so much to us we owe them a debt of gratitude as well. I know the feeling well when your beloved pet is failing, I hope that Ronan maintains good health and that he is with you for a long time. Thank you so much.

      July 31, 2016
      • You can see Ronan in the latest post on my own blog. Isn’t he adorable?

        July 31, 2016
      • He certainly is adorable. I love the photo of him in the water.

        July 31, 2016
  16. This is such a touching tribute, Suzanne. It is so difficult to lose our pets. My thoughts are with you.

    July 31, 2016
  17. Very touching tribute Suzanne. It’s very hard when you lose our pets. Peace in your heart.

    July 31, 2016
    • Thank you Sumith, Nando and Izzy were very special and it’s still hard to think that they are gone.

      July 31, 2016
      • Ever since I was young, I remember I had a pet at home. Once when they leave us its very hard. I know your feelings very well. It’s hard, peace with you Suzanne.

        August 1, 2016
  18. This is such a beautiful and touching tribute. Izzy, Nando and Percy are so lucky to have you in their lives!

    July 31, 2016
  19. Sorry for your loss 😦

    July 31, 2016
  20. This touched me deeply… what a lovely tribute to your precious pugs. Hugs to you!

    July 31, 2016
  21. What sweet babies. I lost two cats last year so in a similar situation. My new cat is special. ALL my kitties past still hold a place in my heart. And I’m sure we get to see these loved ones again. Blessings. I share your sadness. in lak’ech, Debra

    July 31, 2016
    • Thank you Debra, I am very sorry for your loss as well. Our pets hold such a special place in our heart and lives.

      July 31, 2016
  22. Rest in peace (sweet Nando), we know you are…love Buddy, Ginger, Stacey and Tom. You were, are and always will be Loved! See you on the other side.

    August 1, 2016
    • Thank you Stacey and also hope Buddy and Ginger are doing well, they are amazing.

      August 1, 2016
  23. I didn’t read your blog in the Nando and Izzy days, but your pain is truly palpable… Sending loads of love and hugs to you dear Suzanne. ❤ ❤ ❤

    August 1, 2016
    • Thanks Kathryn, those two sweet dogs were so much a part of my life I feel lost without them.

      August 1, 2016
  24. My heart goes out to you Suzanne. Sending you hugs to help you cope.

    August 1, 2016
  25. I just couldn’t hold back the tears, dear sweet lady!

    August 1, 2016
    • I thank you so much Mollie. Your post about the loss of Gibson brought me to tears as well. I know you understand and I am just so happy about Chance!!

      August 1, 2016
      • Chance really was a bit of a fluke, but keeping busy with him has helped. And after Gibs I was having such a hard time getting up, getting moving, keeping on schedule…well, Chance doesn’t let that happen!

        August 1, 2016
      • It was amazing, I love the story of how you got Chance. It was meant to be and how wonderful for you.

        August 1, 2016
  26. Oh Suzanne, I always loved reading your posts with Nando and Izzy. Such wonderful stories with cute pictures. My heart goes out to you with this one-year anniversary. As you said, what a blessing that Percy has entered your life. He seems like such a dear.

    August 1, 2016
    • Percy is a realy sweetheart, pretty much a dream dog. No issues really, good health. It’s amazing and I am grateful. I miss my Izzy and Nando so much.

      August 1, 2016
  27. My sweet Beagle, Boscoe, died over ten years ago. This past spring I was in Italy petting horses at a winery in Friuli. A sweet little beagle came up to me and I started crying. The hole is never filled but it does get better over time, day by day. Prayers for comfort.

    August 1, 2016
    • It’s so true and even after 10 years you are brought to tears when you saw the little beagle. It happens to me all the time. I broke down at a park when I saw a black pug. Thanks so much Michelle.

      August 1, 2016
  28. What a beautiful post about your sweet dogs! I am sorry it is still so hard. My heart goes out to you. I hope over time it will be the happy memories that last.

    August 1, 2016
    • We were very connected the three of us. It is still so painful. Thanks so much Shari.

      August 1, 2016
  29. So sorry! so glad Percy has come into your life and home!

    August 1, 2016
  30. Heather #

    They are with us always, no matter what, when or where. xxx

    August 1, 2016
  31. Suzanne, this is a wonderful tribute to Nando. It takes a lot of courage to reflect back and remember, and even more to put together such a heartfelt post. Nando sounds like such a character, and while no pug can be replaced, I’m glad you found room for Percy. Take care 🙂

    August 1, 2016
    • Thank you so much, Nando was one of a kind. He was so special, so was Izzy both of them were such characters, I loved them. Percy is another character, what a good boy with a great and quirky personality.

      August 2, 2016
  32. All dogs go to heaven. Bless his little heart. And your big one. ❤

    August 2, 2016
  33. It’s hard to believe that a year has gone by. The first time I read your blog I knew how much joy Nando and Izzy brought to your life. I saw it in your pictures of them, how you included the dogs in your posts and the wonderful recipes you made for them.
    I believe dogs come into our lives for a reason and now Percy is here to guide you through this next chapter.

    August 2, 2016
    • I know a year went by so quickly, it feel like it was yesterday, They were so special, both Izzy and Nando and I know you understand about loss. Percy is a real sweetheart and brings so much joy to me. Thanks so much Sharon.

      August 2, 2016
  34. What a tender post Suzanne. I guess you’ll never stop missing them. Thankful with you for Percy and all the life he brings to your home! thank you for sharing this… hugs.

    August 3, 2016
    • Thanks Rhonda, it was a difficult post to write, the tears flowed while thinking back on the day he passed and what he went through in the days/weeks/months preceding his death, Thank you!

      August 3, 2016
      • So dear Suzanne– you know how well you cared for him through it all, no regrets. It’s just hard. hugs hugs.

        August 3, 2016
      • 🙏😃

        August 3, 2016
  35. Suzanne, I praise you for the strength it took to write this while your heart was breaking all over again. My fur baby is thirteen and was also diagnosed with a brain tumor and now has Cushings Disease brought on from her medication. I’m thankful for each day I have with her. Sending a great big hug. ❤

    August 4, 2016
  36. Suzanne, this is such a beautiful tribute, and it brought me to tears. I’m so sorry I miss d this when you first posted, but three cheers for finally making way through unread emails! Percy is so lucky, as were izzy and Nando! Love, Emily

    August 15, 2016
    • Thanks Em, I can’t believe it’s been a year. I don’t honestly think I can ever really completely heal the whole thing was so traumatic for both Nando and I. My poor sweet boy.

      August 15, 2016

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